I’m always careful about what I say to God, especially now. Why? You’d be surprised what one might say in the moment or to get their way. I’ve learnt just how unreliable I can be. A contended mind is a perpetual feast, right? The mailman who fails to deliver is unreliable. You never know what you will get with him, until he turns over a new leaf and becomes serious. I realized that a lot of the promises I was making were out of selfish motives, even as a Christian. Skipping down memory lane, I reminiscence about a time I went as far as signing a piece of paper hoping God and I could enter into an agreement. Bad mistake! First, I didn’t keep my promise and second the problem became worse.
The bible states in Ecclesiastes 5 verses 1-7:
“Be very careful when you go to worship God. It is better to listen to God than to give sacrifices like fools. Fools often do bad things, and they don’t even know it. 2 Be careful when you make promises to God. Be careful about what you say to him. Don’t let your feelings cause you to speak too soon. God is in heaven, and you are on the earth. So you need to say only a few things to him. This saying is true: 3 Bad dreams come from too many worries, and too many words come from the mouth of a fool.4 If you make a promise to God, keep your promise. Don’t be slow to do what you promised. God is not happy with fools. Give God what you promised to give him. 5 It is better to promise nothing than to promise something and not be able to do it. 6 So don’t let your words cause you to sin. Don’t say to the priest, “I didn’t mean what I said.” If you do this, God might become angry with your words and destroy everything you have worked for. 7 You should not let your useless dreams and bragging bring you trouble. You should respect God.”
And boy did I learn. But I thank God for loving me enough to teach me. I thank God for sticking with me, even when I was nothing more than a mere fool. There is a song by “for king & Country” called: God only knows. I love this song. It expresses a character about God that is absolutely true. God knows each and every one of us personally. The bible says that even the very hairs on our head are numbered. Imagine that, God knows the real us, so I never have to make a promise that I can’t keep.
I’ve learned to trust in the Lord, and that takes discipline. I can’t say how or when I started trusting so much. All I know is, I just let go and started trusting but I think it has to do with my belief in him. I know he’s real and I can’t deny that. Acknowledging my struggles in prayer and asking for help is all I need to do. Some say, you don’t have to ask more than once, the bible says he already knows what we need before we ask…but my personal relationship with God is exactly that… personal. We don’t need to justify our private matters. He is God. Some say, “you pray wrong.” Unbelievable… the stress people would bestow upon another person is ridiculous. Going to the father in prayer is personal and beautiful. It doesn’t matter how you go, he knows your coming to talk to him…and trust me, he sees. I’ve had people tell me, “You must call him Jehovah, or he will not listen.” Jesus specifically said to pray…” Our Father.”
I realized that all my broken promises are tiring. I never want to tire the Lord out with all my talk. So today I ask and trust that the outcome will go according to plan. He’s not a God of confusion nor is he a God that lies. I just have to be patient. If what I am asking for is something that is a matter of life and death, I believe I just have to trust him. He hasn’t failed me yet. Even in the times I thought were the worse moments of my life.
People give more credit to satan’s powers then God’s power. They say, “beware of him.” But I’ve learned to trust in my Father in Heaven so much that the worries I had previously vanished. The struggles I’ve tried to manipulate with contracts are being dealt with by a God who loves me. I don’t need to do anything but trust and believe. And even sometimes that’s the hardest thing to do… sometimes we just have to ask him to help our unbelief.
I’ve seen him move mountains over and over again. And I know I’ll see him do it again. So, don’t make promises that you cannot keep… just be yourself and visit with the Hoy Father as often as you can. Amen